I have mixed feelings about Valentine’s Day. On one hand, I love pink, chocolate, cutesy commercial things and surprises. On the other hand, I think people should express their emotions more often and not just on one particular day because they feel like they’re forced to. I both love and hate seeing my coworkers get deliveries of flowers to their desk. I am jealous that none of the deliveries are ever for me and then I feel stupid for feeling like that. What do overpriced flowers that will die in a few days mean anyway? And why do I want them so fucking bad? And chocolate. I also want chocolate. But I have a job (for three more days) and can buy all of these things myself. Does the chocolate taste better when someone else pays for it?
We are in the middle of relocating back to the United States. Am I being absolutely ridiculous for thinking that I should be getting chocolate right now? And yet here I am…
However you decide to spend today, I hope it isn’t a huge letdown. I hope you get to hate it or love it as much as you like and that people don’t talk shit to you for how you feel.
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